I know it's been like two weeks into junior year but the uncertainty and chaos is truly killing me.  Now I really appreciate order and patterns way more than I have before.  Straight lines and regular polygons are starting to affect me like they did to my 9th grade geometry teacher and it's fine.  I luv it.  I luv dis.

I just wanted to mention that I put my camera like five inches from that bee in the last photo because I am a truly reckless and fearless human being.  I just wanted to mention that.  You may think I'm a five year old child with a keyboard and camera and you're so freaking right.  

Other than that, I just wanted to say that flowers and leaves and nature is pretty and I'm sad that summer is ending so quickly.....I really want more heat and more mosquitos because I'm illogical and I feel like the world is just more intense in the summer.  U kno??? 

I know.  Amazing.  After 8 months Allyce is still alive.  I lost inspiration, got distracted, did a whole bunch of other things, took a 2.5 hour nap, and got inspired to post again.  That was basically today and also the past few months.  I feel the urge again, to take photos (not to pee but that too), and the urge feels pretty gooood.  

I went from sleeping at 2 during the last few weeks of the summer to having to go to sleep at like 10 or 11 to get up early enough for school.  For the first few nights it was super hard for me to fall asleep no matter how tired I was.  

There's a certain feeling you get when you can't fall asleep and you stare at the ceiling and feel your own warmth in the blankets.  It's an internal pulling towards a destination that you can't reach while the feeling still exists in you.  So you lie awake and your thoughts simmer in your head and evaporate with your breath, over and over again.  You're slightly panicked that you can't fall asleep and that only makes it worse.  

That's what I wanted to capture in these photos.  Anxiety, obligation, but most of all, uncertainty.  

More photos coming soon :))  

I have been taking a break from photography, but now I'm going to do it officially.  I have a lot of things to do, and I'm not sure that I want to do photography regularly anymore at this point.  It has never really made me flow.  

So I'm going to leave this blog here as a place holder, if I decide to come back.  Thank you for checking up on me for all this time and good bye!    

Isn't this the coolest thing you've ever seen in your entire life?  Like!!???Look at that finger!  

So funny because I went to the City and I completely forgot to take POV kind of photos, the ones that I've been taking for all this time.  I'm always on edge in public spaces so I guess I couldn't completely relax and concentrate until I was out of places where I could get cool shots.  Sigh.

 I have no idea what is going on in this photo or what i was even trying to do.  But hey.

Daytime indoor photography is really cute and I must experiment with it more.  Because how cute.  Honestly.  

Feeling a little....unfocused

Vroom vroom vroom.  It was weird to sit on my driveway like this but it just looked so nice and flat so whatever.  WHATEVER.  Fight me.  Happy New Year's Eve, friends and family

New York has such weird weather.  One day it's warm and sunny, the next it's cold and rainy.  But I got to take pictures outside without a jacket underneath this summer sky but now it's over and December again.  RIP :'( I miss summer!!

I wanted to take a photo like this for a long time. I'm going to experiment more with glasses in different settings for sure.

I was really into getting shots from down low because of the snow.  Hah.  Even though it's crooked I still enjoy it.  Happy holidays!

It's really weird to walk on new snow that has never been touched before.  Like I am the first person to be here ever since it started snowing.  Feels so magical.  What if instead of melting, snow just became part of the ground?  And everytime it snowed and someone stepped in the snow they could see the footsteps of previous snows below the new snow?  That would be weird in the summer.  But????

 It was snowing/raining/something outside and although people were telling me that it was okay to just go out in the rain with fancy expensive DSLR and get it all wet and stuff, I had to bring an umbrella.  So as a result I was shooting one handed which started to hurt after a while.  But it was really cute outside and mushy outside, so I was happy.

I ordered a wide-angle adapter thing from Amazon so when that comes in I'm going to start taking....more similar photos...to the ones..I have recently  been posting....yeaaaaahhhhhh